In shadows hiding from the world,
Only coming out when it gets cold
The seas part when they hit the floor,
The voices carry on and out the door
And everything you touch turns into gold
chorus: Like the angel you are you laugh creating
A lightness in my chest,
Your eyes they penetrate me,
(your answer's always 'maybe')
That's when I got up and left
A beating heart and a microphone,
A ticking clock in an empty home
Still tells of these times so long ago,
Even though I've come so far,
I know I've got so far to go
And any day now I'll explode
chorus
And each and everyday will lead into tomorrow
tomorrow brings one less day without you
But don't wait up just leave the light on
'Cause all the roads that I might take
will all one day lead back to you
chorus
I seem to like this picture. Old but I still like it.
So I'm stuck finishing 8 pracs. 2 Resubmits and 6 I don't know about. 6 pracs? I was only away for 3 days! What madness! *flares nostrils and breathes heavily.
This is going to be random and out of place so try and understand. I was suppose to go get my license today, right? Yeah, I noticed how I didn't have my birth certificate, so I called my mum and she tells me she has it at her place. Oh my goodness, the frustration! THE FRUSTRATION. I can't believe how disappointed I was this afternoon. I've waited 16 years for this and delayed for about 4 months now, and I come to a "Oh, I have your birth certificate, dear". Noooooooo! And she told me she'd come over and give it to me tonight, but she didn't! I know my mum too, and I know she's not going to get around to doing it till like about a fucking week. I just hope it doesn't escalate to a good 2 and a half, or else I'd just cry and go massacre a few hundred people.
So, I got my economics test back Yesturday? I didn't fail like I thought I would, so I kind of owe Chris a hug because he spent like a few hours typing up a review for me to study off. Oh and I didn't fail english, like I also thought I would. So, school is under control. Except for the outstanding pracs that I owe Ms.M - that's enough to put me in anger management classes.
Ms. K commented my hair yesturday - or I think it was a comment? She said that it blinds her, and something about it not doing her any good since she had a headache. Haha, who said you needed weapons to take a teacher down. She commented Justin too. "So what's happening in world of Justin", Pfff said that he needed a fan club or a cheersquad. I thought it looked like she was working her 'A-game' on him, lol! Nothing else happened yesturday apart from.. scripture classes started for me. ClassD41. Justin is in my class, too! Apparently we're scripture buddies now. "We'll be scripture buddys, and we'll look for god together!" Sweet jezu5, Justin you're such a corny guy.
Relationships suck. Mine is just stable, right now I guess. I mean we're off but it's just... still stable. It would've been 3 months yesturday. I'm not worrying much about it though. I mean Andrew and I are really good friends so you know.. My friend however, isn't so much what I'd consider 'okay', like no where okay which is kind of border line that separates fucked and good. I feel sorry for him, because his girl seems to be the total slutbag. Gets on my nerves just talking about her.
Congratulations to David for passing his Drivers knowledge test and getting a learners permit! I'm so damned proud of you, ya know? (:
I find it hard to sleep during the past month. I lay in complete darkness, with socks on, tapping on the wall for a straight hour and a half - and I am still awake here! Hellooooooooo, what's the deal?
Today I'm going to get my license with David. I'm going to surely fail, dear lord. If I UNBELIEVEABLY pass, I'm going to look like the biggest shitbag on my Id photo. My school ID photo arrived this week. Let me tell you now, I look like the biggest dumbarse everrrrrrrrrrr. I'll bloody store this photo away for a long time and only ever touch it in an emergency - and I mean EXTREME emergency.
School isn't as great as I had hoped it would be especially now that exams are over. For now. I'm only proud of hospitality and maths results and the rest are just average. I'm not complaining - It's good to know I haven't failed.. yet.
The group is still distant from each other. We're all separated still, and only ever come together to dump our bags ontop of one another. Everyone seems to be paired up and I'm the wanderer. WOOOO (unenthusiastically, of course). I think we were meant to have our little picnic thing today, no? Yesturday, I meant. Reason - Jennifer-is-broke. Whenever we attempt to do something together, it always involves money. Fuck.
No more news. Wait one more - Andrew and I have decided to have a 'temp. break'. I don't know if it will be temporary because I'm really indecisive. Neh.
HAPPY MUMMY'S DAY!
On an entirely different subject;
God, this is like sex to my eyes/ears. One word for Nguyen Lam; awesome.
Yeah, this pretty much sums up what I've been doing today. Youtube. I bought new red pens today, as well. Two, infact. I'm always losing my red pens, damn it - TAKE MY BLACK OR BLUES I HAVE PLENTY TO SPARE BUT STEP OFF MY RED PENS, FAR OUT. Yeah, red pens and tictacs. 2.90 woweeeee.
Physics in about an half an hour.
I just had to share this with you guys.
- [T.S.G] Physxx | Your promises are all played out, You've got your wish and you've worn me down says:
yes.
- [T.S.G] Physxx | Your promises are all played out, You've got your wish and you've worn me down says:
i..like crap
Okay, the secret's out now. Go spread the word my little minions! This boy likes crap - so, I'd make sure my shit is flushed if I was you (we don't want a ranga ransacking our toiletbowls, do we?). And yes, there is more to this boy than just ranga hair and overpriced sundaes.
.. I KIDDING. Lol, shit happens. You're an alright guy. Abit rude and cruel - sometimes barbaric, but you're still a fairly alright guy. Haven't exactly thanked you for listening/reading (you know what I mean), when 'no one' would. But, you know I'm thankful - but I'll say/type it anyway. Thanks, Patrick :D
Today was blatantly stupid. English exams I'll tell you now so you guys can refrain from asking me 'how it went'. FINE. IT WAS FINE. I'm not going to say much about it because.. I obviously didn't get my mark back therefore, I wouldn't know how I went. As for the story? Please, don't ask me what I wrote - I obviously forgot (I say obviously, because.... SINCE WHEN DON'T I FORGET?). I know one thing's for sure. It was about love - unrequited love to be exact (and the main character was Viriya). I had trouble talking about love because I was afraid I'd portray a very biased view on love and blah blah blah.
What is love? I think it's just like a mountain. Climbing that mountain is hard, yet falling from it is easy; quick and easy. The higher you climb? The more challenging it is, but the higher you climb the harder it is on you when you fall. CATCH ME, PLEASE. So why do we enjoy loving or beingloved? Is it for the thrills? TELL ME WHY! Oh how dramatic.
We're all subject to loss and pain; it's inevitable so stop pondering and thinking "life is just so sad and it's completely over" (nudge anonymous) and that you're the only one that's hurt. BECAUSE YOU'RE NOT. Go cry a fucking river, but don't drown everyone in it. I'm trying to help you but all you're doing is making me feel fucking useless. You make it obvious that you're hurt and it's obvious you want me to help or notice. OKAY, IM NOTICING - what now? I try to be nice and all you do is give me the shits for no reason. I hate that about you despite the fact that you're so nice when you want to be. AND YOU TALK TO ME AFTERWARDS AND PRETEND EVERYTHING IS OKAY, AND WHAT YOU SAID - I TOTALLY FORGOT!? fat fucking chance, you asian. WHY DO YOU NEED TO BE IN LOVE FOR? WHY ARE YOU RUSHING INTO IT. WHY MUST YOU? WHY ARE YOU? I'm sorry to be the one to tell you, but having a boyfriend/girlfriend is not always number one priority. You're foolish and gullible. You exaggerate how life is just sooooo bad for you cause' you either don't have enough friends, don'tlike where you live, dont enjoy your life as much as you think you would have if you were somewhere else (okay maybe I understand change was really slack with you, so I'll cut you some slack with these) and the fact that you don't have a girlfriend? PSSSSH. ARE YOU KIDDING ME? whatever..
you make me angry now.
Anyway, on an entirely different subject..
IS HE JUST THE CUTEST THING? LOL, don't kill me.
Just something.
- I don't know what your problem is. You try just a tad bit too much to be heard. I know I can be a little bit complicating sometimes and rude when I'm angry, but do you have to always make it seem like you're the one being hurt? You're unsatisfied with everything you've got and look down on everyone. maybe you dont do it intentionally, but you do it. I want to be close with you, but you're making it harder and harder for me with everything you say. You tendto say things thathurt people, laughing it off isjust another chore; I dread doing it but im obligated to. So what's the damn point in complaining about it, anymore.
- Sometimes you can really annoy me. I hate the way you try and make everything about you. I hate having to be mad or intolerable for you to change. I don't want you to change, because I want to like you for the person that you are, but in order for me to like you, you have to.. change? I feel so supressed and raw around you, like you've cut me open and rearranged me somehow (CORNY). I don't feel comfortable around you anymore and I never plan on doing things with you because you never find the time to do anything for me? LIKE LISTEN FOR INSTANCE. I hate it when I hate you. I hate it more when I think about hating the fact that I do (hate you). You always act like everything is fine and that I will be fine just as long as you pretend it is. It's not fine, we're not fine. I don't know about chances anymore; I guess it's safe to say that the "spark is gone"? Safe to say? I don't know.
- You mean so much to me, but I can't help feeling cut about you. You have a split personality; so nice yet so cruel. I hate it when you're inconsistent with me. Either love me, or don't. You too, always act like everything is fine when it isn't. I hate it when you do that - I hate it the most. I love you so much but when it reaches the peak, i instantaneously lose it for you. You treat me differently under different circumstances, yet you tell me you loveme even after hurting me and quite often - make me cry? I don't get you. I wish I could say I do, but I don't - not anymore.I fear that you and I are drifting. It happened before, it'll happen again. It's happening now...
- You. I feel as though I can trust you anytime, anyday, anywhere. YOU NEVER PICK UP MY CALLS, damn it. This may sound like the biggest cliche, (and as corny as it may sound) but I think fate really did bring us together. You're one of my closest friends and probably the only one I trust right now. I know I can depend on you under any circumstances. YOU will always be my friend and ALWAYS my first priority. You're spontaneous and bubbly; always accurate with timing regarding my mood (this means you know when I'm happy, when I'm sad, when I'm - whatever) and youknow exactly what to say/do. You could put psychics and fortune tellers out of business because I wouldn't need them to tell me I'm lucky; you remind me everyday. SO LUCKY TO HAVE YOU IN MY LIFE :D "DAMN IT, FRED. I HAVE CRABS". *sings to you with a blocked nose. HAHAHHAA, HOW HORRIFYING WAS THAT VOICECLIP!?
- I hate it when you pretend to be the person you're not. More when you're two-faced to me. Just want to let you know I'm pretty much aware of what you're trying to do to me. Oh, and that I know and see through your pityful little lies. (be sure to read this) I've had enough of your shit.
- You break my heart. But I love you anyway, Darren.
- You're never satisfied with what you've got. You never seize the opportunity or take advantage of things you've wanted and obtain, and I hate hearing you complain about it. Do something about it or shut up. If only you've taken my advice -but nooooooo, things were just a little 'COMPLICATED'? Is it really? Or did you just want to tell yourself that to delay happiness enough for it to be TOO LATE TO HAVE. persuing it is just always a step away for you, isn't it. On the bright side, I love talking to you or just exchanging little secrets. You're quite the little kid for an old-ass chicka. N0TE: I think you suck at picking out what to wear. Don't try to look mature (so ironic because you're not?) try to look.... you.
- I'll teabag you to funky town, bebeh. AND SKULLET YOUR PUBES. You're one awesome friend to have. There really isn't much to say, but LOVE YOU AND YA skullet, pube face, ponytail and cornrowed eyebrows. Skank.
..and you have the coolest shoes out. (got hungry and ate your shoe, didn't you.. well, try to atleast..)
RELEASE THE ANIMAL IN YOU ;D !
- I'll call you. LOLOLOL, sorry I never got around to it. You sort of did drift away from me this year haven't you!? Damn it, #1, how could you do this to meeeeeeee. TELL ME WHY DOES IT HURT SO MUCH (U).
- Remember when I hit you with my phone? and you bled? Laugh out loud. BRICKS ARE GOOD FOR FENDING OFF THE STALKERS ie. you.
- I sometimes think about you. Miss you, maybe? Is it wrong? You tell me..
Guess who.
on an entirely different subject - Guess who, Peter! LOL we're going to hack it up and mail you it's ear with a ransom note.
Been reading; keeps me nice and occupied.
David took me to the park a while back in the holdays. Bruised my chest and hip areas trying to run him down on the 'flying fox'. LOL, he took it like a man but you know.. 'crying deep down on the inside'. Afterall, I am tank.
(8:26 PM) - David: not many people can say they have taken me down
(8:26 PM) - David: but u did
Yes, I did.
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